The inner mumbles of the Mumbly Panda

Through a trailer...?

So, today started off pretty lamely...i was back in the studio last night...my classmate had no idea how to do it after several hours of thinking hard..so i decided to stay and help her...so i didnt get in quite till quite late...
so got up at like a ridiculous hour..somethin like 10:30 which was embarassin on my part...had a rough night...i live near the clubs so alot of rowdiness occuring outside...

decided to do a few things today...had to do my washing for the first time here! the experience was awkward...im not the conosseuir of the varieties of washing machine, so after puttin in my £2 some help from someone else who was waitin for her washin to finish...mine was underway...40 minutes later...went back to the laundry room to put in the dryer..50p. went back upstairs to eat...came down after half an hour...the clothes are still 40% wet. gee. so i put in another 50p..they are still not fully dry so if u look from the pavement at my room...u will be able to see the fine range of clothes i am wearin down the trendy streets of Plymouth (various "that shirt ross always wears" tshirts)

i also decided today, id try and have a go at some song writin...was awkward...i didnt have a subject matter...maybe a take on life? im not writin a song bout a girl cos ill leave that to Mr. Mayer and his groovy cats...maybe a song bout God? maybe a song bout my life and God? somethin!
so, i had a go...came up with somethin...but i wanna write somethin simple but not simple...a nice arrangement of simple words but not somethin...i dunno...predictable. havin said that, i will end up with a finish product that is predictable (no doubt) and it will be so in vein with Mr. James Blunt that he'll want to cover my song. I'm Overwhelmed anyone?

so..tried..took a break...jus thinkin bout my week ahead...its actually quite busy..busier than last week cos i joined the CU and Bton society...first bton practice is tomoro at 7pm to 10pm and team trials are on Saturday..and call backs are on Sunday..CU is on tuesday nights...not to mention my nearly 30 hour timetable..but i will do it.
ive been disillusioned...startin off here God-wise is hard right now...im bound down by tryin to do secular things with friends, and its hard when ur on own and u gotta do everythin else...sometimes i wanna spend time with God...but my head is not in the right place..there is always somethin to consider like my work, my washing...rubbish like that. the competitiveness between classmates is annoyin me...everyone keeps talkin bout the classes they are gettin, tryin to see who is the smarter mathematician, people who are so smug that it radiates like the sun..its hard when all u want to do is jus work hard and keep sane. im rambling. basically, its got my head runnin wild bout grades.

so, jus to kill time this evenin, i was on the apple trailer website..and i came across the film called "Facing The Giants", about a College American Football coach who is facin hard criticism from parents and havin to cope with other family issues...but there is a part where he is givin his pep talk
"winning football games is too small a thing to live for..we're not here to be born,make money and die...so im here to present you a new team philosophy..We need to give God our best..and if we win, we praise Him and if we lose, we praise Him."

the background music was "The Voice of Truth" by Casting Crowns...readin the lyrics really spoke to me. i think the film probably jus has the same ol plot...a nothin team comes to winnin...predictable. but i jus never imagined that God would drop a little of Himself in there..

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth



God,please restore my energy and faith in You.

posted by Mumbly Panda @ 20:54