10 Days
So, it's 10 days till I get baptised..Im really lookin forward to it but i cant help but feel a lil overwhelmed by it...
It's such a big and public declaration...in Terence's words..."to stand up and be counted". I am joining God's army on Earth and i want to praise His name and show everyone His love. but Terence also said i am now a "target" for Satan...and that is so true. I am a target. And because I like to over think and hence overworry bout things...what happens to me when i sin? how can i be in His army when I disobey his 'command' or 'order' as it were? of course i will never be perfect, but how can God lead such a 'flawed' army? Why does He keep putting His faith and love in his soldiers when we do nothing but disappoint?
That's something I want to come to terms with before i get baptised i gotta be honest...I am defintely looking forward to being baptised but i cant help but feel embarassed in front of God cos He sure knows He is taking in a sinner who will keep on sinning daily...
Maybe Satan is shooting at me now... God... please protect me during these last 10 days before i start my new life with You. Satan wants to take me away...satan threw a free day of paintballing on the 11th too through one of my friends...And as nice as it sounds Lord...I know i must stay focused on You. Help me stay focused. I want to say focused on You Lord. I am focused on You Lord.
...20 minutes later...
Just had a chat with Bert...ive learnt:
a) everyday is a fight
b) just keep remembering how grand and totally awesome He is
c) Jus keep lifting everything to Him...even paintballing(!)
d) baptism isn't about the little things ... it's all about God.
It's all about God. ill leave you with that...
thank you for reading.
-ross-
Song of the Day: "Come around" by Rhett Miller
posted by Mumbly Panda @ 19:14
2 Comments:
nice eh. Thing is to remember, if He doesn't want people who aren't perfect, then why would He have chosen you? He chose you out of enternity, and beckoned you into His arms on the cross. Now God being God knows all those things, boy He knows them more than anyone ever, but that doesn't stop Him from giving up who HE IS for us.
He does His bit, now it's our response, I think He would be pleased if we just respond to His love and all that you know. And that starts the process of holiness.
Be certain about that, don't let the unnecessary worrying marr your baptism, it's your choice. I had the exact same problem, I wanted to be perfect I wanted to be strong and just everything, I wanted to be holy for God so bad, but I'm not and that's a real damper, so frustrating...but
There is a time for everything... (hehehe). These 10 days will zoom past :D
and....FREE FOOD!!!! :D :P
Nick - thanks for the words of encouragement man...being persecuted for my beliefs is jus hard atm...i really feel satan is throwing stuff at me at the moment...and i will overcome this...let these 8 days be a calm before i enter His army and battle for Him.
secret secret - y'know you are right...my brother is a handsome fellow...but uh...i really feel like playiin the 'name and shame' game jus cos ur name is 'secret secret' but my stomach is telling me not to...i have my suspicions but then again so do most ppl when they read this! so uh... Miss Secret ... good luck!
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